strange energy today

the day started like any other
revision of the osi model, a bit of aws cloud practitioner course,
modules and percentages flashing on the screen —
64%, 71%, then finally 91%.
small victories, i guess.

but in between all that technical noise,
there was another kind of noise.
not the fan of a server, not the hum of a laptop,
but words.
“you're such a cute baccha.”
“why are you like this?”

i laughed, brushed it off,
but deep inside it hit differently.
a weird mix of care, teasing, and something unexplainable.

but i can't deny it makes the day lighter.
maybe i'm fine with being a little baccha,
still coding my way into something bigger.

night came and i sat with my thoughts.
the aws console open in one tab vscode in another but my mind somewhere else.
half in commands, half in conversations.

sometimes learning feels like climbing a tower,
other times it feels like standing still
while the fans keep spinning above me.
yet today, even with the confusion,
i didn't feel entirely alone.

tomorrow will probably be the same mix again.
bits and bytes.
questions and answers.
teasing words that stay in my head longer than they should.

and maybe that's fine.
maybe that's exactly what keeps the day alive